I did NOT want to write this but I can’t leave that last post up. I will not, in fact, be starting a new job downtown on July 21st. Due to a miscommunication about the work-related incident report I have on my record, the job offer was rescinded. They said that had they known about it in the first place, they never would have even considered talking to me about the position. (By the way, I have updated my online Big Bank Co application to reflect the incident so no other potential hiring managers can be surprised by the incident.) I am so humiliated and embarrassed. I feel like a colossal failure and as though there is nothing I can do well, right, or with excellence.
Maybe I am not the corporate America type. I'm sure trying to be. I should have made more of an effort to find a career path right out of high school. I never in a million years thought that the responsibility of being the main breadwinner in my family would fall to me. I wanted to be a stay at home mom, but Bob’s disability has changed all our plans around. The pressure to bring home a better paycheck is unbelievable and I feel I've failed utterly. I'm trying my best and it seems I cannot catch a break.
Interestingly, everyone who’s responded to me thus far in response has suggested leaving Big Bank Co. In thinking about that, I pondered going back to school a final time and getting my degree in digital photography from Brown College. Low and behold, out of the blue, an admissions counselor from Brown called me just now and asked if I’m still interested in their digital photography program. We chatted a bit and I said I’d call him back after we returned from our vacation. This requires an in-depth discussion with Bob.
Anyway, thanks for your prayers and support. I hope you all have a wonderful and amazing 4th of July weekend.