Thursday, June 01, 2006

A Tentative Plan

Chloe and Zoe on the bed
Originally uploaded by SunFlowery.
So we have a plan. Well, a tentative plan anyway. I am taking the rest of this week and all of next week off as a leave of absence from work. I am meeting with my counselor Friday, Monday, Wednesday, and Friday and then we will assess where I stand. I am not going to check into a hospital just yet. I may end up checking in there eventually though. I am scared to do that right now. Most in patient mental health programs are full and the ones that aren't are full of people worse off than I am. I don't know if I can handle what I'm going through AND a room with schizophrenia. Who knows. Now all I have to do is notify my boss and see what the verdict is at work. Last time I was hospitalized for depression I lost my job. Bob says not to worry about it. He says my health is more important than anything and even if I do lose my job, we will make it somehow. I want to believe him but I am scared to death. Yet, this is the plan that makes the most sense right now. I hope it helps.


Reighnie said...

Your kittens are sooo adorable.

I hope everything turns out well for you. You are having some heavy times and you need to do what's best for your situation.

Your getaway looks like it was a blast and pretty too!

Anonymous said...

(((((BIG HUG))))) from Florida. I can relate and do what is best for you. You are lucky to have such a wonderful, supportive husband. I will be praying for you both.

Natalie said...

Put yourself first! Take care of you! I know it has got to be scary when things are uncertain. I have a feeling your employer will be supportive. My prayers are with you and Bob.