The quote to blog by this week, at the onset, seems simple enough and yet I struggled to come up with something to write about. Not that we haven’t seen our share of difficulty…because we certainly have. I think the problem, however, is seeing the difficulty as opportunity.
I’ve never been one of those people who fail and think, “Only 999,999 more tries to victory!” I mean if it had been up to me to invent the light bulb, we would still be doing our blogs by candlelight. Yet Thomas Edison failed hundreds of times before he succeeded with his light bulb invention. Good for him. I am not like that.
However I think in the midst of my most recent depression, I was able to see opportunity. I saw the opportunity to take care of myself instead of wallow and isolate. I saw opportunity to save my life instead of end it. I also saw an opportunity to spend some time with my husband.
I think the hardest thing about depression is how much is negatively affects the people around me. I hate that. I wish I could suffer alone but we are not built that way and life doesn’t work that way. It’s also very difficult to see outside of the depression. It’s a selfish illness that tends to turn the spotlight inward. Yet in the middle of my depression and in the middle of that difficult time, Bob and I found that we were happiest when helping others.
Maybe that’s what Einstein meant. In the midst of great difficulty lies the great opportunity to reach out to others. Even if we are suffering or hurting, we still have the strength to reach out to others. While I was taking time off to care for myself, I also took the time to volunteer with the MDA. I also met with friends who were similarly hurting. I took the time to email a friend who was also facing a difficult time. It is through these opportunities for care that I saw through the lies depression whispers to me. I am not bad. I am a loving person who cares for others. There are people who care about me. I am not alone in this. At the same time, I was able to reach out to others to show them that they are not alone in the difficulty they are facing either.
Galatians 6:10 (New King James Version)10 Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all, especially to those who are of the household of faith.