I haven’t written for a couple of days because all I really have time for these days is school, work, and sleep. My class just started and has thrown me into a tizzy of anxiety of nerves. My group has met one time outside of class and has planned to meet more in the next 3 weeks. We turned in our proposal for our research project and I may be calling on you readers to help us out by filling out a survey or two. Just be prepared. I think we are doing OK but the amount of work looming ahead of us is daunting. I have 4 weeks left in this course and hope I don’t live through 4 weeks of nerves and anxiety. It’s just no fun and the addition of anxiety breathing makes it doubly difficult.
I am no longer taking the Clomid but its effects still linger. I am weepy over the dumbest stuff (Bob calls just to tell me he loves me. Sob!) and I think some of the anxiety I am feeling is chemically induced. I see the ultrasound tech on Friday to check how this cycle is going. I asked Bob if he thought we should finish this cycle out but maybe put off further cycles until after this class at the soonest or until I graduate at the latest. There is just too much going on right now. Not that you can put off having a baby until the exact perfect time…because if you do that, you will NEVER have the baby. There is no perfect time. Granted there are better times than others, but we aren’t getting any younger and in December I’ll be 40 so there is still some discussion to be had on this.
Speaking of turning 40, I am throwing myself a graduation/birthday party in January. Have I mentioned this already? I am waiting until January because by then the din and glitz of the holidays has passed and people are slogging through the winter now just looking ahead to spring break. Plus, it will give me time to plan and pay for the party. My last class ends on November 15th and the next 2 months are party planning time. I have a question I need some help with. I don’t want gifts. I know it’s presumptuous to expect gifts at 40, but sometimes people do want to do something nice to commemorate the day. Instead, I would like people to make a donation to either the MDA (Muscular Dystrophy Association) or The Belmont Foundation (an organization that promotes mentoring to boys from single parent households). What is the best (least tacky) way to indicate this to the people I am inviting? The invites have already been printed and shipped and make no mention of the gift/donation thing. Can I put a small insert with the addresses/websites of these organizations with the request for donations in lieu of gifts? Your help and Miss Manners directions are greatly appreciated.