Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday

Friday was horrible at work. Work pretty much sucks donkey balls right now. We are hearing one thing and then another is done. Last week I was asked to compile a list of the most common errors bankers make on our annuity paperwork. My old boss would have just asked and then all would be well until the meeting. This interim boss asked me on Monday how it was going and then emailed me on Wednesday to ask how it was going. Both times I told her that all was well and the list was mostly compiled and ready for the meeting on Friday. On Friday she stopped by my desk to say she still hadn't received my list. I told her I didn't know I was supposed to get it to her before the meeting. She said she was sure she had made it clear. So I emailed it to all the participants only to get a meeting cancellation notice 10 minutes before the meeting. Also canceled that day was a project me and my co-workers have been working on for over a month that was supposed to be launched November 1st. It's now been pushed back to January or February. I hate putting my all into something that isn't appreciated. I've been actively looking for other work within Big Bank Co and elsewhere and so far...nada.

Saturday was a picture perfect day. Bob and I knew the weather would be lovely so we wanted to spend it outdoors. I went online and found a nice park that is also a working farm not far from us. It's a county park and we didn't even know of its existence until Saturday. It was lovely. The park is on a lake, there are cows, turkeys, sheep, pigs, and chickens. We walked all over and had a great time. We also bought some of the free range chicken eggs they had for sale. Only $2 for a dozen medium eggs. What a deal. Here are some photos from the day:The barn and silo of the farm. The barn was closed so we couldn't check it out, but there were plenty of animals outside to see.This is the calf that was out in an open pen. It was the friendliest calf ever in that it would come right up to the fence for some petting. Too cute. Check out more of my photos of our perfect Indian Summer day over at my Flickr site. Click the badge at the right.

Sunday was a day for cleaning. I cleaned cat boxes. I cleaned out the dishwasher. I vacuumed the carpets. I also went to the grocery store and picked up some items including Bob's birthday cake mix and frosting. I made his cake and some enchiladas for dinner. The rest of the day was just spent vegging and watching TV.

For some reason I could not fall asleep Sunday night. I went to bed around 9pm because I was tired but I woke up at 11 and didn't get back to sleep until 5 this morning. Needless to say I didn't go to work today. I finally got to sleep at 5 or so and slept until 10:30.

Today I mostly just chilled. I DID get a nice email. About a week or so ago I shot pictures at a swanky charity event for a woman I know. She hired me to photograph the attendees of the event. Apparently she liked my work. She emailed that she would like to use me for all her events in the future and will pay my requested fee. Sweet! I told her yes and am now waiting for her to email me her list of event dates and places. ROCK!

Friday I was feeling so crappy. Sometimes I get into a place where because my job sucks and because we haven't yet gotten pregnant, I feel like a failure. I feel like a failure because I'm not where I want to be professionally and I'm not where I want to be familialy. I was just so sad and felt so alone. Then today I get an email like the one I got from this woman and feel invincible. Like I can do whatever I set my mind to doing. I like that feeling so much better.