Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Sunday was Sadday

Yesterday was a better day than Sunday. Sunday was sad-day. I cried all day. Not just tears sliding silently down my cheeks but great heaving sobs of broken-heartedness. Sobbing while driving. Sobbing while at home. Trying not to sob at the laundromat. Sobbing in the car outside the laundromat while waiting for the clothes to dry. Sobbing on the phone after a friend had called to ask how I was doing. Sobbing on the floor of my bedroom while clutching carpet and wishing the floor/earth would just swallow me whole. Yesterday? No tears at all. Though I almost lost it when I made the call to my clinic to say the pregnancy test had been negative. I managed to hold it together because I was at work. The tears may have stopped but the sadness permeates.

Today me and a co-worker are working on a Habitat for Humanity project all day. The high today is supposed to be 55 and it's really windy. I am wearing 2 shirts and a sweatshirt plus a coat. I have a hat and gloves on hand as well. I hope the sun is at least out for some warmth. Apparently there is snow in the north part of my state today! Brrrrr.

Only 2 more days until my final project and presentation for my research methods class. I can't wait for this class to be done. Once it's done, we have a week off and then begins my last class of my bachelor degree program. I. Can't. Wait.

1 comment:

Tuesday said...

I am really sorry Amy. Kind of puts what is important in perspective. You've been very brave about unpacking your feelings so clearly and truthfully on the net and that is going to help others.

Hope the research methods stuff goes well.