Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Project Baby

Project Baby is full on. No more is there talk of “some day when we have a baby” or “if we ever have a baby”. No sir. It is now all “When we have this baby” this and “When the baby is here” that. In fact, we have agreed that I will do what I can to ensure successful breastfeeding and we are researching disposable versus cloth diapers (Did you know that cloth diapers today do not mean what they meant to my parents? It’s true!). We even have had the name talk. We have had a girl’s name since before we were married and will be keeping that name (or a derivative of said name.) for a girl. However, we do not have a boy’s name. We throw names at each other quite often and there are few we hate so we could be in trouble if we have a boy. There is one name we both love but Bob is adamant about not shortening it to its obvious nick name while I really like the nick name and would like to use it as well.

Tomorrow is my first FUS and I am both nervous and excited. Even though I chart morning temps, I really have no idea where I am in my cycle so tomorrow could be an exercise in futility and patience. I could end up going back 2, 3, or 4 more times before we actually do the insemination. Bob wants me to relay some information to our nurse practioner and ask her advice. The information has to do with nocturnal emissions and their frequency. Bob is 45, don’t these things go away by now? Anyway, I will relay and see what she says. Sometimes, for all the medical training Bob has had in getting his Vet Tech degree, he just doesn’t know much about reproduction. I was the one who informed him that a baby girl is born with all the eggs she will ever have in her whole life. He thought that we made new ones every month.

Last night I had 3 of my friends over for bi-monthly prayer. These are the women who have stood by me, encouraged me, held me up, etc. We talked and prayed until 10. I always feel so refreshed when I meet with these ladies. It’s like they can see the real me and they like her and pray for the best to happen. I hope they feel the same about me. I just love them so much. Every one of us is waiting for our “break through” on something. For one it’s her family’s business. For another it’s marriage. For another it’s healing. We have faith strong enough for each other even if we don’t for ourselves and I don’t know what I would do without them. Last night the prayer for me and Bob fell in line with the WHEN of project baby. There were no prayers for “If you have a baby.” They were specific and decidedly unwishy-washy in their belief that there will be a baby. I know I’ve said it before but I hope you have friends like this. I know that they are in my corner no matter what and I feel the same way about them.


Yvonne said...

Positive thought is a great thing. What a blessing your prayer partners are!

Mary said...

I named my first Michael. I did not want to call him Mike, there are a lot of Mikes in the family, I wanted him to be Michael. That lasted until his first day of 3 year old preschool when he told the teacher he wanted to be called MIKE. Now I'm about the only one who still calls him Michael. Oh well. You do what you can. And good luck to you!