This is a photo of Bob and his dad from last Christmas. We heard today that Bob's dad has congestive heart failure and is probably not doing so well. When we are in Orlando, we will be only about 450 miles from him. We are weighing out the pros and cons of making the drive to see him. It's about the distance between my home town and the first college I attended, so it's definitely doable. And I've never been to the state where he resides, so I could add it to my "states visited" roster. I say we do it. Bob is more hesitant because he is unsure of his father's health and doesn't want to put him out. If we don't visit him now, the next time we see him will probably be at his funeral. This just makes me feel so sad. I know our parents don't live forever, but I don't think we are ever truly ready to lose them.
In other sad news, my boss took me aside today to say that someone reported my van fundraising efforts for Bob to HR and I am to cease and desist any more efforts. I understand Big Bank Co has a no solicitation policy, but what about all the stupid Girl Scout cookies, wrapping paper, pizzas, cookie dough, and magazines I've bought to raise money for every co-worker's kid's school. I never reported those people to HR and I always buy something because when I was a kid I sold 800 gagillion things to raise money for various and sundry things. To cushion the blow, my boss did say she was working hard at getting her boss to OK a match or donation from our department for our walk and that anyone who received our letter can still donate, but I'm not to solicit any more via notes, photos, emails, candy sales, etc. It just irks me. Try to get a guy a van so he can get outside his apartment, make doctors visits, and reach out to his community and there are people who want to put a stop to it. But try to raise money to send a girl to camp or to buy pencils for some kids homeroom and everyone is all for that. Well, OK, it's not a fair comparison because education rocks in all its forms. Still, it's the principle of the thing.
I'm glad we're leaving for Florida in 10 days. I need a vacation from all this crap. Work hasn't been going so well. Not just because of today's news either. Lately I've been feeling crappy about the work I do and who I am. I've been feeling stupid and stagnant and loser-ish. I feel like (and especially now) I don't have any friends there and no one to watch my back. I guess I just feel alone there. Maybe I just need to become a drone. A worker bee that doesn't interact or get involved. I just come, do my work, and leave. Nothing more and nothing less. I don't know if I can do that, but I may not have any alternative at this point.
I am loving my favorite radio station even more than I did before. They finally gave the ax to Dr. Laura and replaced her with The Satellite Sisters. Now I don't have to turn off my radio or turn the dial from noon to three. I'm still not a huge fan of the 3-6 show, but at least now I can listen from noon - 3 without having to gauge my ears out with a melon baller. If you live in the twin cities area, please turn your dial to 107.1 and check out the real life conversation.
Special thanks to Kathy at http://www.coffeegrind.diaryland.com
for passing along the info on the van fundraiser. She's a peach of the fuzziest variety.